...and she prays.

God shows a particular love precisely to those who He punishes in this world, b/c in purgatory there is only a long and harsh punishment, while, if we willingly accept the crosses in this world, we merit for ourselves an even greater glory in Heaven


as the Proverb says: for the Lord chastises him whom He loves.

accept the pain and focus on the Lord for the reward is great. Morn not now for the days you have the small load to bear. Morn because your Lord is not here with you, to hold your hand through it. HE IS Omnipresent and he is here and someday we will be with him.

Lord, I can carry this small burden. I can deal with everything you give me. I am weak but you make me strong. You show me the love that I need to survive this harsh world. I'm an advocate for you. Let others see your love through me. I pray I can shine with your light. Thank You for all you have given me, for having created me to love you for eternity, for the place you are keeping for me in heaven, for the supportive family and friends to help hold me through my struggle. You are my Lord, You are my savior. And I praise your name. Amen.

**I pray. I pray daily, multiply times daily. I will never know what the future holds for them but I wholly yearn for happiness for all those in my life. I hold my children and pray with them. I pray for Clint, for his salvation, so that he may be the father and leader to our children that they'll require in this life. I drive and I pray ....and sometimes I blog and I pray. My health is not good. If you look at me I look like the typical 25 year old woman but on the inside its bad. Very bad. My body is in stage 3 endometreosis. The surgery that I had October to remove the scarred tissue and the cysts worked but wasn't a permanent fix. I went to the dr. on Monday only to find that my endometreosis is back. its only been 4 1/2 months from last Octobers surgery till now. Typically after they go in and clean out all the scarred tissue and cysts they give you a couple years before it comes back. I totaled over 40 cysts. It wasn't supposed to come back for a few years if at all. . . not in this case. They're trying to offer me some new drug, honestly all I can ask for is prayers and the fact that I know that know matter the pain I deal with on a daily basis its nothing compared to the pain of the Lord ....and my focus at all times especially now should be on God.

If you'd like to keep updated follow me. I know alot of women deal with this and if you could tweet this I'd love to see if I could get a group together to see if there are others that have dealt with the same issues.

Good bye yesterday!

<--Mason with his "thinking cap" on. So yesterday definitely ended on a better note than it began. Clint came home mid-day to bring me some phenogram. (grand ol stuff...I keep a refill at the pharmacy just for days like yesterday)

After school, My father took Mason off after school for a while (loading him full of an ice cream sundae) then when he got here he had mounds of home work to do. You might think I'm exaggerating. "Hey he's only in kindergarten how much homework can he have?" WRONG. They've now added a weekly writing assignment on TOP of his already heavy load of work consisting of brainstorming (the little circles with the main idea and five topics); Tuesday night was SUPPOSED to be the drafting (but w/ the snow he stayed with Paw Paw) and thus he didn't get Tuesday or Wednesday done. SO the prewriting, editing, and revisions were all left on us to do last night. Six sentences doesn't sound like a lot, but when your just learning to sound out your words its tough! He got his first widdle writers cramp!

But the good news is that my dad offered to take the "beast" so that was that much less to deal with. While trying to do homework and pack for Asheville. Yeah still packing. Daddy finally got him around 8 and did Masons reading with him. or vis vs. and then he vacuumed and then I got to come to bed! ahhhh bed. I love my bed. Am I the only one that like LOVES my bed?

****Brownie Points for my Big Stupid****
My DSH (dear sweet hubby) took our Lhasa Apso to go get a loooooong overdue haircut and can I just say that EVERYONE loves a new hairdo. (no pictures cause the Big Stupid also took the camera to be fixed--but I DID add an old UNGROOMED picture of him and Deuce 2 years ago.) Can I add in how much we MISS our Boxer!!! :'-( Like really REALLY miss!!!

Louie is almost 6 years old and he's prancing around this house like a show dog its hilarious how he freaks out when he's groomed. (That is when hes not under my feet or curled up next to me cause he's FREEZING!!) Yeah I put clothes on my dog. say something! ha ha. I went from owning American Staffordshire and Rottweilers my entire life to owning a 15lb "fru fru"dog in a Harley sweater. haha I can tell you this though I don't care how big the dog is Louie has growled and "defended" me and the kids against all sizes...including my dads pit that wants him for an appetizer. Poor Louie has the little man complex.

Ohkaaay for reaaaal rambling now.

What to do today....ugh...pictures OFF THIS COMPUTER. I can't say how many I have on here cause my hubster reads my blog occasionally but its ALOT. I did get a CD FULL off last night. Edited and off. ;-) ::small pat on back::

k toodles!

November 5th, Tonsils OUT. Adenoids OUT.

thats it.

my email away message read this...

I'm still not up and moving from my tonsillectomy and adenoidectomy.
Don't be jealous, the ice cream and pudding isn't all its cracked up to be.
:o(

Oh me oh my what shall I do?

I like that title! I think its cute! But seriously, my face still hurts! I don't want to take those giant horse pills the doctor prescribed and Ibuprofen just isn't cutting it.

It doesn't help that my boys beat me up last night. While wrestling Clint and Mason drug me onto our bed and right as I was getting up Masons foot landed on my left jaw, then Clint (gigantic) hand followed. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

They felt so bad, I didn't tell them that I started to taste blood. eww. I think Clint and Mason both were about to cry with me. :'-(

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Dear Body of mine,
I was just wondering WHEN you were gonna heal? If there is ANYTHING that I can do to speed up that process feel free to let me know. Oh and by the way, can you tell me why its so hard to open my mouth? ::snickering:: Did the dentist secretly put a screw in there to keep my mouth closed? (probably Clints suggestion.) Oh well. I guess its better than the abscess. Well I'm off to go get the hot water bottle. Hope it helps!

P.S. why is the empty spot in my mouth so tempting for my tongue to drag across it? AND WHY does it feel like raw hamburger meat? Just wondering!

TRUELY yours,
Elizabeth!

Still no nap.

Kelly is over an hour late picking up her son. Mason just left to go to paw-paws and I have Katherine and Keziah ready to take on the chore of Terri. Oh what a chore.

I took 2 pain pills at 3:45 after picking up Katherine. (Keziah watched the kids so they didn't have to ride with me on all these meds.) I am nauseated and TIRED! WHERE IS KELLY? ahhhhhh!!!

She does have an excuse. Her breaks went out on her car and her dad is carrying her to and from work today and tomorrow.

I just want a freaking nap!

I did manage to make Miss Katherine a cake for her 15th birthday! :-D (I'm asking for exhaustion!)

Happy 15th!~

I thought this was a cute picture of Kristopher and Terri Jade. . . .

IT'S DONE!

I couldn't take the pain. I was taking pain pills every 2 1/2 hours in the middle of the night.


I called the Dentist office at 7 am and left a message! Basically begging for annnnything!

They called me back ironically at 9 this morning. (when I fell asleep for the first time NOT in agony!!) "We can get you in for xrays at 10am. I'm not sure how much further we can get past that. BUT they might be able to get some work done."

I"LL TAKE IT!

I called my wonderful, amazing, astonishing, incredible, magnificent, remarkably awesome neighbor Donna to see if she could watch the kids and I hauled tail up the street!

EXACTLY 11:08 am I stepped back into the house! ONE HOUR and DONE! They wanted to send me to an oral surgeon to have a root canal. HMMM....$2,000.00 or $200.oo? I'll take the second option please! SO I am minus a tooth. oh well....at least its all the way in the back.

So I have antibiotics, pain medication and KIDS! Anyone wanna come over and babysit so I can take a nap? ohhhh allllright!~!!!

I'll let you know how bad it hurts in a couple hours! :'-( Until then ICE packs here I come!!

I couldn't take the pain anymore!

I called the dentist! My appointment is for Friday!


WISH ME LUCK!


This wouldn't be AS bad IF I had insurance. ::SIGH:: With the extremely dry weather last year and my husband owning a landscaping company we thought it would be an easy quick budget fix to drop my insurance. Whoops. We've just had such a hassle out of Cigna. ugh!!


I hate going to the doctor with no insurance. ESPECIALLY when my face feels like the Incredible hulk took a punch at me! I did manage to find a couple old pain pills. So hopefully I can get some sleep.

WHAT reaaaaaaallly stinks is that Mason has T-Ball practice on Saturday morning at 10am and I might be a little all mangled up. Geeeeez Jim !!!

The BLACK PLAGUE attacked me!!

I got IT!!!!!!! GRRRRRR!!!!

::cough cough:: back to bed ::cough cough cough::

::sniffle sniffle::

I feel it coming!

You know when you FEEL the cold creeping up on you? The DRY SCRATCHY throat? The constant thirst for water. THE HEADACHE that won't give.....

Well welcome to my day. Oh can I add that I drove around from 9am till 4 pm!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Our day goes as follows....
9:00-leave the house. (the groomers is 20minutes away) *I had a half off coupon!!!*
10:00-Pick up Katherine from her house. (so she isn't stuck alone all day)
11:00-go by a couple yard sales. *(NOTE: I saw kitchen chairs that I LOVED!!)*
NOON-Go by my in-laws....LEAVING TERRI THERE!!! WHOOO HOOOO
1:00-CHICK-FIL-A/furniture store/
2:00-another furniture store/Hancock fabric for some fleece *(1/2 off)*
3:00-pick up Louie
4:00-go BACK to my inlaws to pick up Terri *(Katherine and Mason cleaned out my ENVOY WHOOOOO HOOOOO!!)*::happy dance::

5:00 came home ::BIG SIGH:: Let the kids run amuck...is that a word? well you know what I mean!
I think Terri Jade got waaaaayyy to much sleep and was tooooooo cranky!

I could NOT GET HER SLING OFF OF HER!!! She was persistent on wearing it to bed!!

I put Katherines chihuahua Cali in the sling for a while. Terri thought this was the greatest. When I took Cali out Terri started in with a fit and I mean a FIT!!!


Basically this video is The kids running in and out of the house and Terri Jade throwing FITS!! She was mad that the puppy was out of the sling. Then she was mad at something else and then something else... lol

The music was called Cali (like the chihuahua) I thought it was cute...

Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

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Wonder where I have been????
Week goes as follows...Wednesday-vomitting and diarrhea, Thursday-Clint got it (only the later portion, nothing out the top), TODAY-Mason and Terri Jade have it(only the puking nothing out the bottom...YET).

We went out this morning to shop for Masons birthday party and to take Terri to the Dr. (to get her ears checked b/c of her pulling at them and her cough). The doctor told me that b/c of her congestion she was pulling at the ears.(Babies can't pop their ears to relieve pressure) I did tell him that we had the stomach bug this week and he said that there was really nothing that they could do for that. NOT EVEN an hour later is she throwing up.

SO the JOYS of Motherhood? Being able to sit at a mexican restaurant after shopping for your sons 5th birthday party and having your sleepy daughter shoot projectile vomit ALL over me!

Of course Clint burst out laughing HYSTERICALLY.

I was very. . . very. . .well casual about it. It was almost like it happened everyday. There was no point in me freaking out or getting upset. It would only upset the baby. So I walked her to the bathroom and by the time I got in the door she did it again. I hate to see the kids throw up. I don't think anyone enjoys it.

So we get our food to go (KNOWING that mexican food is BEST at the restaurant) and by the time she gets into the truck in her car seat she throws up 3 more times. GAAHHHHH! Poor baby.

So when we get home I get her out of the truck and head for the house.....TWO more times. I get to the front door and fumble for the knob, TWO MORE TIMES, I get in and get her to the tub....yep you guessed it, ONE more time. I got her cleaned up and she laughed a little. I put her in the bed and there she has been for the past two hours.

I called my father to tell him that Terri got "it", he informs me that Mason threw up last night and this morning and that he was starting to feel better. I know I know, why didn't he call me and tell me this last night. ugh~! You just have to understand that my father raised me and my brothers by himself and a flu bug is as flu bug. He isn't one to freak out and quarantine Mason b/c he is sick. He is the type to let him sleep with him, get puked on in the middle of the night and immediately get sick himself so that Mason (a.k.a. paw-paws boy) will be as comfortable as possible.

So THIS is my week. How has yours gone?

Wordless Wednesday

AHHHHH!! I hate not being able to breath. I can't stand that I am not able to blow my nose.

UGH!!

I actually had to use my daughters infants saline drops this morning to alleviate some of the discomfort!

On top of that I have this DRY itchy throat and COUGH!
[With A little sneezing mixed in]
Well its actually ALOT of sneezing, a little I could deal with ;-)

**The bonus is that none of the kids are sick!**



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Man I feel crummmmy!

I know that isn't a word. But I hate all this drainage. I probably shouldn't have sang so much in choir practice last night. I didn't want to miss practice because we've been working on our Christmas special, and lets face it...I need all the help I can get. Luckily I have some great voices that camouflage mine!;-)

ahhhh . . . .and then there was the up all night (for the past 2 nights) with the screaming baby. Terri is having the hardest time cutting this last back tooth. She got up around 12:30, and would not calm down unless she was in my arms and on my chest. I slept sitting up on our couch for a few hours last night. MOTHERHOOD is WONDERFUL! I need a special mommy shot, where I don't ever get sick OR TIRED! ;-) Please someone invent that for me!!!!!! K, Great!


At least she woke up in a good mood! I don't think Terri can be in a bad mood when Mr. Kristopher is here!

My new V803 camera and sick???

So by the end of the afternoon on Friday I basically felt like crap. Dry scratchy throat, headache...etc. I guess it didn't help that I went to a consignment sale with Mandie and then went for a few cocktails afterwards. Maybe the alcohol dried me out more. UGH! I felt so bad yesterday!! BUT I DID manage to get a few snapshots with my new camera!!! Clint gave me my gifts the other night at midnight, I guess he couldn't wait. We only got our kodak easyshare C533 this past Christmas. It is a nice point n shoot camera. I'm just not always pleased by the way some of the pictures turn out. So when I saw the difference from the 5 MP to the 8 MP...I was TICKLED!

Okay so here are a couple pictures I took of Louie...I don't think he feels good either!



My poor sick puppy! To make matters worse....Terri Jade is cutting her last back tooth. Which is giving us all a hard time! She cried and screamed most of the afternoon yesterday and then again for hours last night. I gave her tylenol but could not find the teething tablets. AHHH! I gave her her stacking blocks which she loves, and I even put on her Matcia designs hairband....which worked great until her blocks fell and she had a melt down. Poor emotional little thing!




You have to see THIS pathetic face!! Or THIS one when the blocks first fell...

Mason is the only one in the house not in a sour I don't feel good leave me alone mood. But he did manage to make me smile by showing me what I looked like....

I'm S I C K !!!!!

Okay so where have i been?

Friday morning ohhh about 4:00a.m. I woke up . . .wait let me go back further than that (yes the details will make a difference)

So Thursday night I was up to my usual late night internet searchin, IM chatting, next day blog preparing (thats right I don't always do it the day of the original post;-D), fly lady list checkin usuals! Then it hit me ...."whats that you say?" THE HUNGER BUG!!!! [I'm not one of those "can't eat after 8pm type of people"] So I take my inner cow self into the kitchen and decided upon my late night snack.

SOFT TACO? SOUNDS LIKE A GREAT IDEA!!!! mmmm. . . meat cheese, more cheese, salsa, habanero peppers YUM! (I have never had a problem with any kind of indigestion~expect during gestation that is) So back to the taco...YUMMY!!! Gettin hungry? LOL

So after I eat (thats right right after i eat i lay down~feel the thighs getting thicker oh baby!) My head was killing me. I suffer from and yes I did say SUFFER from migraines. IT SUCKS!!! So when I know one is coming on I HAVE to lay down.

I put on my eye wear. . .(here is a cute picture of me and Mason wearing our "eye wear") and try to lay down. Well Mason gets up and we do the late night peepee thing. He wanted me to lay with me so I did.

SoOOOoo about 4:00am IT hits me...I make a sudden dash for the bathroom just soon enough to MISS!!! YEP! I ran, I aimed, I shot, I MISSED! (What's even funnier is that Clint cleaned it up~LOL~I'll get to that in a second) SO the night goes as follows ...NO sleep, LOTS of VOMIT, a lil diarrhea (thought I'd add that sorry for the T.M.I.), and a VERY GROUCHY HUSBAND!!!! So by 7:30 in the morning Clint was fed up. I didn't realize why he was freaking out . . . his head wasn't resting where HIS butt was a few hours ago. yeeash! I did apologize around 8:00 last night for the day HE had and (I realized that yesterday was the day his mom died 6 years ago) He is never that pleasant to be around on June 1st or other holidays. I love him I just know he hasn't forgiven her yet. He also is angry with the Lord for letting her do what she did. enough said.

So Mr. Illa** decides yesterday morning to go get me some medicine....I HAD some promethazine (anti nausea/vomiting medicine) which worked great once I finally got up to go get it. But Clint comes in with this "miracle" nausea medicine from CVS. Well he bought this wonderful medicine and tried to FORCE it down my throat like he had been the one who had been throwing up and he just knew what was best for me. WRONG!!!
I only took half of what he gave me and exactly 2.5 minutes laterit happened!
Have I ever mentioned before how much I HATE CHERRIES??? ::GAG:: No really can't ewwww So of course my DH goes out and buys me some cheery elixir! ::GAG::

So last night Terri goes to bed at 7:00 (thank you Lord!) and my DH(dear husband) feels the need to change the sheets on the bed (that is sooo comfy). I think its nice except for the fact that he practically wedged his foot you know where to get me out of the bed. I've already mentioned why he was already having a bad day but good Lord I didn't ask to be sick. Then he goes into the guest BR and see the small explosion all over the place. SORRY HUN!! So I went and got into Masons bed while he cleaned.

So I slept and slept and well. . . slept.

Did I mention that Terri Jade is FINALLY CUTTING HER TWO TOP TEETH?? YAY! Perfect timing.

Oh and I fed her breakfast this morning and she ate like there was no tomorrow. Come to find out that Clint gave her crackers cookies and 5 bottles all day yesterday. (I'm glad it was only a 12 hour bug!~LOL)

Ohh and if you've made it this far. . . and haven't gagged yourself by all my gross details I will be doing some reviews next week...Come on back now ya here! (that was for all you readers that think I'm so county~which I'll admit to!)

Ohh yeah. . .what is that smell in my house? No it's not vomit. My house smells. . .like wet towels were left in the washer. Let me go check. . . .nope. . .wth? Ohh well the lysols out anyways. Might as well spray everything!

Ohh just to leave you on a not so (vomit) note. . .my fridays post was gonna have something to do with the fact that I shampooed my carpets while wearing Terri Jade in the moby. Here s a picture that Mason snapped...

Notice the ADORABLE expression on Terris face? Like "ooooo bubby you better not take mommies picture right now...she's gonna be barfin all day tomorrow"? LOL
Ohh and please forgive the blue painters tape in my hall...it's been there for at least two weeks!

Ohh BTW sorry again for all the details...I HAD to whine to someone...don't forget about the all about me post...keep on asking...I'm taking note...I'll post on Monday possibly Tuesday!